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Tuesday, September 14, 2010
My autumn holidays
Lately, I've been fretting wad I'm gg to do with al the free time I had. Since it's e holidays, I truly want to enjoy it. But to my dismay, things dun often work according to wad I wish.
Everyday, it's either at home watching anime, go ntuc, I dun really hav much to do.
While some pple ask me out, I rejected cause I find it a bore. While I like to go out w my frens, they either have smth on or they need to work.
Sigh. Wad a holiday. Everyone is pretty much busy. No one really had e freetime to catch up w you , or wadever. Nvm.
While job hunting is even more gross. Having to go alone to ask, n gg for interviews alone sucks big time. I couldn't really do much alone. It bores me to death.
Other den pms, I still have pms. Yes I have it big time, n ESP I'm feeling bloody hot almost everyday n it's freaking bored almost everyday.
It's freaking irritating. Everything pisses me off n even a ant that's in sight could die horribly if I happen to c it.
This kind of violence pretty much sums up my frustration. Things I can't say or complain. Fml. Bloody pissed.
But den again. I really wish God could help me.
Sigh. E first sign of happiness I wish, probably to rain first. Big hot buldging sun pissed me off too.
Urrrgg.
So dad is coming home today. I shall slp soon
Zzz u know wad? E most scariest thing in life, is wen a person decided to give up on u. Or, terminating their frenship with u. Sounds scary ehh? Let me share den.
I remember that kind of feeling. Wen that person meant alot to me. Apparently my best fren in pri sch days. We sort of gt into a quarrel, n we have tt numerous times. So while e cold war lasted for days, I thought I shuld just apologize n b frens again. While I call her using e phone, n told her wad I had to say, knowing that she wil let it go, I boldly apologize. Even though I think it wasn't my fault. But den, in e phone, she accepted my apologies, but she say she couldn't b frens w me again. It broke my heart, n I stil rmber it.
With my ex bf, again, this time it was my fault. But wen I ask for reconcile, he said it was enuff.
The part where pple has gave up on u, n dun wanna have any more relations with u, dun Wana care about u, is a v scary feeling. I can cry days n days.
I dun blame em though. I probably made em do these to me. I guess I haven't done my part enuff.
You see words are often empty. Frens forever is bullshit. Wrote that a million yes ago n guess wad, how e heck they've been ? Idk.
ILy imy. To hell w it unless u mean it. Although similarly, it won't last.
Everything said wouldn't last, but anything that's being felt could last.
And I remember very well.
So instead of telling ur bestfren, rue my bestfren.
Why not keep mum n prove it with more actions n feelings.
We all have a way of seeing n feeling things.
I guess this is human. Wad seem important to me might look shallow to u. N vice versa.
So, there's no space for a true definition.
Feel it den. Goodnight.
Everyday, it's either at home watching anime, go ntuc, I dun really hav much to do.
While some pple ask me out, I rejected cause I find it a bore. While I like to go out w my frens, they either have smth on or they need to work.
Sigh. Wad a holiday. Everyone is pretty much busy. No one really had e freetime to catch up w you , or wadever. Nvm.
While job hunting is even more gross. Having to go alone to ask, n gg for interviews alone sucks big time. I couldn't really do much alone. It bores me to death.
Other den pms, I still have pms. Yes I have it big time, n ESP I'm feeling bloody hot almost everyday n it's freaking bored almost everyday.
It's freaking irritating. Everything pisses me off n even a ant that's in sight could die horribly if I happen to c it.
This kind of violence pretty much sums up my frustration. Things I can't say or complain. Fml. Bloody pissed.
But den again. I really wish God could help me.
Sigh. E first sign of happiness I wish, probably to rain first. Big hot buldging sun pissed me off too.
Urrrgg.
So dad is coming home today. I shall slp soon
Zzz u know wad? E most scariest thing in life, is wen a person decided to give up on u. Or, terminating their frenship with u. Sounds scary ehh? Let me share den.
I remember that kind of feeling. Wen that person meant alot to me. Apparently my best fren in pri sch days. We sort of gt into a quarrel, n we have tt numerous times. So while e cold war lasted for days, I thought I shuld just apologize n b frens again. While I call her using e phone, n told her wad I had to say, knowing that she wil let it go, I boldly apologize. Even though I think it wasn't my fault. But den, in e phone, she accepted my apologies, but she say she couldn't b frens w me again. It broke my heart, n I stil rmber it.
With my ex bf, again, this time it was my fault. But wen I ask for reconcile, he said it was enuff.
The part where pple has gave up on u, n dun wanna have any more relations with u, dun Wana care about u, is a v scary feeling. I can cry days n days.
I dun blame em though. I probably made em do these to me. I guess I haven't done my part enuff.
You see words are often empty. Frens forever is bullshit. Wrote that a million yes ago n guess wad, how e heck they've been ? Idk.
ILy imy. To hell w it unless u mean it. Although similarly, it won't last.
Everything said wouldn't last, but anything that's being felt could last.
And I remember very well.
So instead of telling ur bestfren, rue my bestfren.
Why not keep mum n prove it with more actions n feelings.
We all have a way of seeing n feeling things.
I guess this is human. Wad seem important to me might look shallow to u. N vice versa.
So, there's no space for a true definition.
Feel it den. Goodnight.
